Real life=Real Shit

Sometimes life hits you nice and softly while other times it slaps you hard as fuck out of nowhere, with NO WARNINGS lol. This, is one of those times.

Sometimes, you have to channel your inner wolf to get through tough times like these 🔥

"Tower-moments are the crumbling and destruction of old and broken foundations with the intention of building new, strong and stable foundations for your future,-"

The Tower is a card in traditional and non-traditional tarot, that falls under the Major Arcana. Major Arcana cards are usually indicative of big changes/movements in your life. The Tower itself, as mentioned above, crumbles in order to rebuild a solid and healthy foundation in some area(s) of your life. If you don't know Tarot that well, then you may be super lost. Basically a tower moment is equivalent to, "Why the fuck did this have to happen at the worst time" lol. So, when do these towers happen? Are these 'towers' large, or small? Well, LET ME TELL YOU. Ever since our most recent full moon, the Super Moon on February, 19th, 2019...shit has been going CRAZY up in here. I'm not exaggerating in the slightest either lol.😂

Let's start with the day to day stuff, sound good?👌

Tower #1: My Health

So for those of you that don't know me that well, you will soon learn that my kidneys are NOT my best friends.😂👍 I have always struggled with certain issues when it comes to them, so I'm used to it. However, I had just gone to the ER in December for them, and did not anticipate that I would have to go again. I was working one night, and about an hour into my shift I started experiencing a very uncomfortable pains, that made working pretty impossible. I am not one to walk out on a shift, or to call out sick, but I had to leave immediately. After getting treated at the ER, they prescribed me the same medication they always do. This medication by the way, doesn't work very well, so wooohoooo.🤣 About three days later, I came down with a nasty cold that made everything feel ten times worse, (Yes, I still have this cold lol). My son and boyfriend were also plagued by this grossness, but my son has it the worst out of all of us. My boyfriend recovered quickly...lucky him.😂👌

Tower #2: My Brake Lines

So for an extra LOL for you guys, my brake lines got FUCKED UP.🤦‍♀️🤣

So! On Monday, we decided to go out for a drive to meet a close friend get some food. We currently are staying in a home where access to certain amenities are...limited. Therefore, we have to eat out a lot if we want something warm and filling. My boyfriend was driving first, and he noticed that the brakes had zero resistance. He didn't communicate this right away, but I had an idea. A few streets down we pull over, and I get in the driver seat to test the brakes. He was right, there wasn't any resistance, and our car would barely stop when we would brake. My foot literally went to the floor lol. Anyways, I somehow managed to drive to Stop and Shop to meet my friend (it's not too far from where I am), because I was PISSED. Our immediate thought was that someone cut my brake lines (it also looked like my tire was slashed). From my understanding, according to the mechanic, all of my brake lines were fucked up. Some were twisted, cut, corroded. Basically fucked up, but we will get to that soon. That left me without a car, screwed, with no means of transportation. Who knew that this was only the start of this MASSIVE freaking tower.

*Sidenote: My car has always been fucked with, since I got it. I've had money stolen from it, my car has been keyed, I have been stalked repeatedly, etc. My poor car has been through the STRUGGLE, but it always kept me and my little family safe.*

Tower #3: The Cost to Repair, and More

This is where shit starts to FUCK ME UP.🤣

After not having my car for a few days, struggling to find rides to and from work, and not being able to get food for us...we receive the call. Can you guess what they had to say? Let me summarize it in the way I interpreted it in that exact moment.

Are you ready?

"Hey, so your brake lines are all FUCKED. Every single one, FUCKED AND DESTROYED. Also, that water pump of yours, FUCKING GONE. All of the belts on the car, even the one you are wearing right now, FUCKING OBLITERATED. Your muffler, SHE'S DEAD. Your tires, ARE SHIT. Your axle, FUCKING WRONG. The bottom of the car, the entire underneath, FUCKING ROTTED. Basically, your car is just beyond repair. Oh, and your oil and coolant is practically poisoned so...yeah. However, we can probably fix it up for you for...

$3,000

But yeah you're basically fucked, have a nice day.

WELL NO SHIT YEAH I'M FUCKED. COMPLETELY FUCKED. MEGA FUCKED.

We have been working hard to get the money and supplies needed to move us across country to Colorado. The last thing we needed to do, was to fix up my car, with the intention of spending no more than $1000. So, you're telling me, you want $3,000. HAHHHHHH. No.

My car, being my first car which I purchased MYSELF, was a 2005 Chevy Malibu Classic. She only had 52,000 miles on her, (yes my car is a female ok). I had her for almost 2 years now, and she rarely gave me any trouble. It's just so frustrating. I don't have that kind of money to pay for repairs...especially if we still want to move.

Our timing to move already has been delayed, and I'm not going to delay it any longer because we can't afford to. I think we deserve to live in a happy, healthy, drama-free space and town. That's all I want.

So, after my boyfriend got off the phone, I started panicking and having a meltdown.

I immediately started looking at cars on craigslist, trying to find something that was affordable for me but also NOT SHITTY. Within a few minutes, I find this car for a VERY reasonable price. Skeptical at first, I read into it, look at the photos, and show it to my boyfriend. It was a car I really liked, it was actually very similar to the one I had on my vision board.

Yeah that's right, this car was on my FUCKING, VISION BOARD. I could not believe it.

You know those little car scent holders from Bath and Body Works? Well if not, I had one that looked exactly like this car, with a Christmas tree on top. I've always wanted a car like that, no joke. This car was larger, had more space (perfect for moving) and the mileage wasn't too bad. We reached out to the owner, and we have made arrangements to look at and pay for the car.

In the end, we got very lucky. I'm just wondering why the Universe made it a point to bitch slap me in the process lol. The only other thing I'm worried about is paying for the registration and insurance, because I don't really have the extra money to spare. Either way, I will figure it out. I'm just excited that I will have a car again, that I can afford it, and that it'll get us to Colorado (fingers crossed).

Tower #4: Moving

From what it sounds like, our moving time-frame has been delayed a bit. I've just decided to say fuck it, I will have to pick up a second job again to save up enough money to feel secure. I can try selling tarot readings again, but they aren't always of the highest demand, and only cater to a select group. I just want to get out of here, we have been fighting hard and working towards getting our own place since last summer, and all of our options have fallen though. We don't have many options, and for our sanity, we can't stay in our current location for much longer. I want to leave ASAP, so if you guys have any ideas or recommendations for me to make some extra cash, or just advice in general, please let me know!

Tower #5: Entities be up my ASS

This isn't really anything unusual, but there are some spooky things trying to get my attention A LOT recently. It's like they caught drift of all these towers and decided to join in to fuck shit up. All I can say, is that they have been asked to leave, frequently. I've had to burn a few candles in order to keep our space neutral. It doesn't last long though!🤣

I hope this helped those of you going through a hard time, as you can see, I understand lol. It definitely isn't easy when these towers crumble, but everything happens for a reason. I'd rather know that my car was failing now, than figure it out in another state on my way to Colorado.

So, in short, thank you Universe for watching over me and my little family. Thank you for looking out for our best interest, and helping us work towards our goals of a stable and happy life. Love and Peace and all that Jazz✌💕💁‍♀️

-Em